Friday, May 8, 2009

A poem!

I love this, especially when you get to the last line.

Symptom Recital
By Dorothy Parker

I do not like my state of mind;
I'm bitter, querulous, unkind.
I hate my legs, I hate my hands,
I do not yearn for lovelier lands.
I dread the dawn's recurrent light;
I hate to go to bed at night.
I snoot at simple, earnest folk.
I cannot take the gentlest joke.
I find no peace in paint or type.
My world is but a lot of tripe.
I'm disillusioned, empty-breasted.
For what I think, I'd be arrested.
I am not sick, I am not well.
My quondam dreams are shot to hell.
My soul is crushed, my spirit sore;
I do not like me any more.
I cavil, quarrel, grumble, grouse.
I ponder on the narrow house.
I shudder at the thought of men....
I'm due to fall in love again.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Another facebook update!

Political Views: mostly liberal
Religious Views: Running. It's meditation, therapy, and prayer all at the same time.

Movies: Braveheart, Donnie Darko, Labyrinth, Night Watch, Pan's Labyrinth, Serenity, Shaun of the Dead, Stardust, Tombstone, 28 Days Later

Anime- Grave of the Fireflies, Hellsing, Jin-Roh, Serial Experiments: Lain, Witch Hunter Robin

Books: American Gods, Battle Royale, Brave New World, The Dark Tower series, Day Watch, Ender's Game, Fahrenheit 451, Jennifer Government, The Little Prince, Love Hina, Night Watch, 1984, The Sandman: Dreamhunters, Snow Crash
Authors: Nicole Blackman, Neil Gaiman, The Brothers Grimm, Steven King, H.P. Lovecraft, Edgar Allan Poe

Friday, January 30, 2009

"if only, if only..." you would say
as you held me
leaving the rest unspoken
the things that you didn't have to say
if only I was different
if only I wasn't going through so much change
if only I was her

well, I'm different now
I'll never be her
and she's no longer what you want, anyway
I know what it is you want
I know you too well
for you to hide what's behind your eyes
I can see it, before you look away

but I'm different now
don't go thinking that things between us
could ever be the same
do go thinking that I would be with you
ever again

Saturday, January 17, 2009


If you are 30 or older you will think this is hilarious!!!!

When I was a kid, adults used to bore me to tears with their tedious diatribes about how hard things were. When they were growing up; what with walking Twenty-five miles to school every morning

uphill... barefoot...

BOTH ways

Yadda, yadda, yadda

And I remember promising myself that when I grew up, there was no way I was going to lay
stuff like that on kids about how hard I had it

And how easy they've got it!

But now that... I'm over the ripe old age of thirty, I can't help but look around and notice the youth of today.

You've got it so easy! I mean, compared to my childhood, you live in Utopia!

And I hate to say it but you kids today you don't know how good you've got it!

I mean, when I was a kid we didn't have The Internet If we wanted to know something, we had to go to the library and look it up ourselves, in the card catalogue!!

There was no email!! We had to actually write somebody a letter, with a pen! Then you had to walk all the way across the street and put it in the mailbox and it would take like a week to get there!

There were no MP3' s or Napster! You wanted to steal music, you had to hitchhike to the record store and shoplift it yourself! Or you had to wait around all day to tape it off the radio and the DJ'd usually talk over the beginning.

We didn't have fancy things like Call Waiting! If you were on the phone and somebody else called they got a busy signal, that's it!

And we didn't have fancy Caller ID either! When the phone rang, you had no idea who it was! It could be your school, Your mom, your boss, a collections agent, you Just didn't know!!! You had to pick it up and take your chances, mister!

We didn't have any fancy Sony Playstation video games with high-resolution 3-D graphics! We had the Atari 2600!With games like Space Invaders and Asteroids. Your guy was a little square! You actually had to use your imagination!! And there were no multiple levels or screens, it was just one screen. Forever!

And you could never win. The game just kept getting harder and harder and faster and faster until you died! Just like LIFE!

You had to use a little book called a TV Guide to find out what was on! There was no channel surfing! You had to get up and walk over to the TV to change the channel and there was no
Cartoon Network either! You could only get cartoons on Saturday Morning. Do you hear what I'm saying!?! We had to wait ALL WEEK for cartoons.

And we didn't have microwaves, if we wanted to heat something up we had to use the stove... Imagine that!

That's exactly what I'm talking about! You kids today have got it too easy. You're spoiled. You guys wouldn't have lasted five minutes back in 1980!

The over 30 Crowd

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Cosby's Third Mustache

Does anyone remember this? 'Cause this sure isn't the way I remember Bill Cobsy!

Yup, told myself I wouldn't do this!

But it seems I just can't resist drunk blogging. Or in this case, slightly but not so much drunk anymore blogging. My excuse tonight? That I should stay up long enough to drink some water before bed.

This whole dating thing is trickier than I thought it would be. It's trickier than I remember it being. I thought it would be easier at this point. I'm older, more mature. I know what I want, and I don't intend on settling for anything less. That should make it easier, right? I'm not concerned anymore about being the girl that I think the person I'm attracted to wants me to be. I'm me, and if that's not enough, then obviously that person isn't right for me. So this should make it easier, right?

Except it's not easier. It's harder. Maybe I'm just not ready yet. I want to be ready, but that doesn't mean that I am. Maybe it's time for me to admit some things to myself that I don't want to admit to. I wish that knowing something is impossible was enough to make me not want it... This sucks.

I suppose the main reason that I probably shouldn't be dating is that it's not fair to anyone else to date them when I'm so obviously not ready. I don't want to hurt someone else so I think the best thing for me to do is to just keep to myself. It's getting to be that time of year anyway. Time to focus my attention more internally, and more creatively.

Ok, it's four in the morning, and I'm blogging, which I said I wasn't going to do. I think it's time for me to stop & go to bed. Maybe things will look better in the morning. Or maybe things will be the same, which seems more likely to me...